I always thought love never once belonged to me anymore after that failed relationship with JorDAn, because it really ended bitterly. Each single word by him is clearly in my mind ringing always to remind me not to anyhow step into a brand new relationship. I guess it seriously hit me alot & what was so unexpected is that this guy whom has been really close to me just as good friends eventually become my lover, my boyf, the man who made me believe in relationship once again. Here & there, I know I have my fears attacking me but I know I just gotta stay optimistic & be fine cos I believe & I want this love to last blissfully. I love him so much. Been pondering on all those bits & pixels of me and Desmond, never knew it can be this sweet. My dreams that failed to come true have finally come true. Let me share what are my dreams. I always wanted to have a bigbig soft toy by my Boyf, celebrate occasions with Boyf. Finally all these bits by bits actually came true leaving me to be astounded. I thought all those thoughts were meant to perish but instead it actually come true between me & Desmond. Desmond give me a really huge dog for Christmas, he celebrated New Year Day, Christmas & Chinese New Year with me. For the first time, always thought that all those lovely memories failed but instead Desmond made it all slowly slowly come true. His love is something that I've been searching for & finally all the rough parts of relationship, I finally experienced the true love that normal couples are doing. I never know love can be this lovely with so many different emotions inside it.
Every single quarrels with Desmond, we both will definitely have lesson learnt behind it. We both also know when to take & give. Unknowingly, we both embarked on this love story since 1o Oct. Maybe it actually begin since the time we met. Our red strings are already together but just a matter of time when the red string get closer & closer only. Loving Desmond has never been a mistake but maybe a mistake was, we should have known earlier as to prevent all those fearful thoughts of me & Him. I guess, sometimes being in a relationship is like that, facing many ups & downs. Closing my eyes, I see so many memories of me & him. I can't help it but tell the whole world, I am blissfully attached with this man named Desmond Toh. I know I've been repeating myself so many times until everyone can get sick of it. But I can't help it. Now, the word "Forever" is still so hard to be used but I know I am loving him for as long as he loves me. Every rough obstacles we have gone through makes us a better couple. I've no idea what will happen next or what yet all I know is I am just going to be a positive person. A happy girl cos I am attached to this man who made me changed totally (: Everything in me is filled with only him.., & just him
Love has so many different ways, & finally I've found my love after many ups & downs. Time has chosen the man & God has given this man to me. I really hope I can cherish him more alil abit longer, & let him know that in my eyes, I only have him. No guys seemed to make me all loved cos it is so special, so unique. Baby, oh oh you are my sweet sweet love & I can't bear to lose you at all. You make me so special, unique, & many other feelings. Oh my~ I am in <33
You are the man who I know makes me smile unknowingly.
I can't seemed to stop thinking of you
You kept coming in my mind & I hear you whispering in my ears,
The three beautiful words which is "I love you"
You make me so complete & so in love with you, my cuppycake.
I can't seemed to live a day without you.., I am totally in <3 Oh my~ Is it a crime? I really hope its not.., Each single love note I have written for you is from the bottom of my heart.., Big kisses are only for you, nothing but just that.., I don't know why, I don't know how but all I know since 2nd Oct 2oo8 Which I confessed to you, I have so attached to you already The way you stare at me makes me blush like a drunken woman.., The way you kiss my lips under the darkness makes me feels so hopeful like a fallen star become back to a shooting star The way you send me those text messages makes me know how blissful I am to have you The way you hold my hands makes me soo happy cos you are holding me so tight as if you doesn't wanna lose me~ Oh my love, you make me so in love with you until so badly~ I love you.., so much so much~ You make me so complete~ Baby, I love you I love you~ Once again, I am smiling towards the computer Telling the computer I am so in love with you~ Baby.., wohaoaini~ <3 The love story we embarked together makes me can't help it But just kept kept on thinking about it~ Thinking of those lil things we have done together.., I still remember how shy you were when I first implanted your kiss, I still remember how you soul-kissed me with that fear in you, I still remember how tightly you held my hands, I still remember how warmth you were when you hug me.., I still remember our first movie together with Tigger.., I still remember how you can't help it but bought the couple rings for us on 1st month.., I still remember how much you spend on our 1st month.., I still remember how I gave you a cake on 1st month.., I still remember how we always camwhored with your handphone.., I still remember how you spend each monthsary together.., I still remember how you asked me that you wanna take care of me on 1o1o2oo8o32o I still remember how the first time I cried for you due to Wen & Fish's problem.., I still remember those bits & pixels with you, my love ♥ I love you~ <3
Baby, woaini! :D Okays. I am done of writing this love note, MUST feel cherish-ed worh! Repay me by giving me a BIG KISS! ^^
For one human being to love another is perhaps the most difficult of our tasks; the ultimate, the last test and proof; the work for which all other work is but preparation.
~ Rainer Maria Rilke
I love you, my dearest TOHTOH