This blog pretty much seemed dead , but no worries I am always here to keep it alive ! Cool , it has already approaching the end of year. Saddening that I don't have a job yet but I ain't going to think further . No idea why but lately my mind has been like a fucker ! ): Probably , lack of assurance and all the shit a woman have but guess it's over ! I really hope so ! For the time being , I just wish to lead a normal life with you ! (: Yeah , you . My babyboy ! <3 Sometimes I do wonder if I ever regretted being in this relationship with him but as time goes by , that thought come into me a lot. But I just want to overcome it ! Cos I want to love my Babyboy ! <3 Not easy to stop quarreling cos it's always the part who want to stop quarreling , who can give and take . :< So that's why I say, quarreling always hurt a relationship a lot despite it's understanding each other better. I have been with my babyboy for three years already ! Maybe to be exact , it's going to be three years and one month ! I used to get very excited over monthsary ~ But as the time goes by , I don't feel excited anymore cos the more excited I feel , the more disappointment I get ! ): Interesting , uh? Looking back at all our times together , be it good / bad I guess you occupied my mind ! & Slowly , I realized sometimes we have distance between each other , sometimes we are just madly in love . Maybe this is love? I have never been this long in a relationship before , I don't know if we belong to happily ever after or what but it's still a miracle that we have gone through so much shit together ! Main thing : My family . Yeah , you accepted me but not my family and that isn't anything I can do about that . The feelings I have for my family might be just like you having for my family . Babyboy , I don't know when I will start working but I really hope we can embrace a brighter future together ! <3 Hell yeah , I really want to work but there's nothing I can do about it yet just wait for you ! You say you care and I trust you . Maybe sometimes I piss you off but please know I do love you . Yeah my heart do weaver a lot but I just want the flame to keep burning or be like the ice that never melt ! Love is endless , but whether we last together till death do us part . It still belongs to us. Cos love takes two hands to clap , lastly babyboy I love you ! <3