Does Forever Actually Exist In Reality, I Am Confused
I Love You Desmond Toh Yong Qiang
Can't seemed to control myself to tell him I love him..,
Sometimes I find myself being a piece of useless shit..,
Cos my head always loves to think rubbish stuffs which I am afraid of..,
I realize my thoughts are always wild, always crappy, always useless..,
Causing unknown worries for the ones I love & care..,
Afraid of this & that makes me so lost at times.., but what can I do to ease it..,
I've no idea but I really wanna cure myself from the misery I always feel..,
Negative emotions haunt me so much more than what I expected..,
Sometimes I know he is very loving enough to stand by me..,
But these attitude of mine.., will I be able to change or not...?
I am so afraid, so scared but I know having him by my side do stops me most of the times..,
I am just an average girl but sometimes afraid to do things which is not my own will..,
Being in love & being loved are two lovely things I managed to find..,
I always thought I don't deserve all these shitty stuffs..,
But surprisingly a man who didn't caught my attention made me believe..,
& I could actually be this long with him.., taking care of me, showering me with loves..,
How can I ever repay him.., I admit although at times..,
I wanna have some surprises by his words, his actions, his feelings, his ways.., but overall as time passes by day and day, hr and hr, min and min..,
It doesn't matter as much as I thought it actually do..,
I have been once a never-positive girl.., but I wonder still "have I changed?"
I've no idea at all.., but reflecting on all these things.., I wonder I wonder?
During the season of when I am sick.., I reflect back alot on my past..,
Ponder so much more that what's expected.., surprised by the outcome but glad..,
Never knowing I can love like this & being all blissful.., but can this happiness last for as long as I live or is it short lived?
I know he always have the best thoughts of my heart.., but somewhere inside me..,
Has plenty of weird & random questions just for him.., I know its crazy but I still want to type it out just for him to know rather than he being kept in the dark..,
The random & weird qns inside my heart pounding
Do you get tired when I get all emo & shitty at times...,
Do you actually feel uber touched when you received my gift...,
Do you feel happy when I give you so many lil gifts each monthsary...,
Do you think you understand me very well..,
Do you ever thought I am like a bitch always picking something on you..,
Have you ever lost your sleep for me...,
Have you ever shed tears for me without me knowing..,
Have you ever wonder do I love you more than I love myself..,
Have you ever feel not loved by me before...,
Have you ever thought of a "FOREVER" with me...,
Have you ever thought you might fall for other girls...,
Have you ever loathe me before in our relationship till now..,
Have you ever thought I am very demanding and bossy..,
Have you ever believed me with your whole heart..,
Have you ever think that I lied to you..,
Have you ever depise on me before..,
Have you ever actually think that I am fat..,
Have you ever thought that its very disgraceful to be with me..,
Have you ever expect anything from me yet I didn't give you..,
Have you ever thought you can love me this much..,
Have you ever thought that I want you to say "I love you" so badly..,
Can you feel my strong love just for you..,
I guess I am being all hysterically crazy insane again..,
But during this period of me being ill.., I thought of all these..,
Well.., I only know for I've lived.., I've really loved Desmond Toh alot..,
All the endless hurts previously really kills me..,
But I know this time, I found my Knight.., the right one.., no longerjerks or what..,
Yet TRUE LOVE, something I've been searching ups & downs..,
For the first time.., I actually able to celebrate my birthday & valentine with YOU.
How special when I memerize about it at times.., it feels so lovely & wonderful..,
I never once feel tired being with you, yet just feeling that loved with you..,
How can I ever tell you those lovely lil feeling..., I believe you can feel it, right?
As I recalled how I spend from being strangers, to you wooing me & what we are now..,
The journey of our lil love story has been a great one..,
& I really hope I can write a big big story book about me & you...,
A wish I hope it will come true.., I can only hope because that's me..,
I don't think far yet just cherish every minute with you..,
That's all I can say.., cos that's love for me & what's love for you..?
Although at times.., I thought of many beautiful dreams with you..,
I really hope one day it will slowly come true & be the beautiful dream I've ever made..,
Woah.., I guess I can be a poetry already.., but this post is for you again (:
Can't seemed to control myself to tell him I love him..,
Sometimes I find myself being a piece of useless shit..,
Cos my head always loves to think rubbish stuffs which I am afraid of..,
I realize my thoughts are always wild, always crappy, always useless..,
Causing unknown worries for the ones I love & care..,
Afraid of this & that makes me so lost at times.., but what can I do to ease it..,
I've no idea but I really wanna cure myself from the misery I always feel..,
Negative emotions haunt me so much more than what I expected..,
Sometimes I know he is very loving enough to stand by me..,
But these attitude of mine.., will I be able to change or not...?
I am so afraid, so scared but I know having him by my side do stops me most of the times..,
I am just an average girl but sometimes afraid to do things which is not my own will..,
Being in love & being loved are two lovely things I managed to find..,
I always thought I don't deserve all these shitty stuffs..,
But surprisingly a man who didn't caught my attention made me believe..,
& I could actually be this long with him.., taking care of me, showering me with loves..,
How can I ever repay him.., I admit although at times..,
I wanna have some surprises by his words, his actions, his feelings, his ways.., but overall as time passes by day and day, hr and hr, min and min..,
It doesn't matter as much as I thought it actually do..,
I have been once a never-positive girl.., but I wonder still "have I changed?"
I've no idea at all.., but reflecting on all these things.., I wonder I wonder?
During the season of when I am sick.., I reflect back alot on my past..,
Ponder so much more that what's expected.., surprised by the outcome but glad..,
Never knowing I can love like this & being all blissful.., but can this happiness last for as long as I live or is it short lived?
I know he always have the best thoughts of my heart.., but somewhere inside me..,
Has plenty of weird & random questions just for him.., I know its crazy but I still want to type it out just for him to know rather than he being kept in the dark..,
The random & weird qns inside my heart pounding
Do you get tired when I get all emo & shitty at times...,
Do you actually feel uber touched when you received my gift...,
Do you feel happy when I give you so many lil gifts each monthsary...,
Do you think you understand me very well..,
Do you ever thought I am like a bitch always picking something on you..,
Have you ever lost your sleep for me...,
Have you ever shed tears for me without me knowing..,
Have you ever wonder do I love you more than I love myself..,
Have you ever feel not loved by me before...,
Have you ever thought of a "FOREVER" with me...,
Have you ever thought you might fall for other girls...,
Have you ever loathe me before in our relationship till now..,
Have you ever thought I am very demanding and bossy..,
Have you ever believed me with your whole heart..,
Have you ever think that I lied to you..,
Have you ever depise on me before..,
Have you ever actually think that I am fat..,
Have you ever thought that its very disgraceful to be with me..,
Have you ever expect anything from me yet I didn't give you..,
Have you ever thought you can love me this much..,
Have you ever thought that I want you to say "I love you" so badly..,
Can you feel my strong love just for you..,
I guess I am being all hysterically crazy insane again..,
But during this period of me being ill.., I thought of all these..,
Well.., I only know for I've lived.., I've really loved Desmond Toh alot..,
All the endless hurts previously really kills me..,
But I know this time, I found my Knight.., the right one.., no longer
Yet TRUE LOVE, something I've been searching ups & downs..,
For the first time.., I actually able to celebrate my birthday & valentine with YOU.
How special when I memerize about it at times.., it feels so lovely & wonderful..,
I never once feel tired being with you, yet just feeling that loved with you..,
How can I ever tell you those lovely lil feeling..., I believe you can feel it, right?
As I recalled how I spend from being strangers, to you wooing me & what we are now..,
The journey of our lil love story has been a great one..,
& I really hope I can write a big big story book about me & you...,
A wish I hope it will come true.., I can only hope because that's me..,
I don't think far yet just cherish every minute with you..,
That's all I can say.., cos that's love for me & what's love for you..?
Although at times.., I thought of many beautiful dreams with you..,
I really hope one day it will slowly come true & be the beautiful dream I've ever made..,
Woah.., I guess I can be a poetry already.., but this post is for you again (:
& You're just the one who is able to make me turn one
Make me fallen so deeply in love with
Make me so head over heels for all the times
Make me think nothing about you
Make me want your kisses & hugs more than any other guys
Make me see you every single moment
Make me want you more each day
老公，我爱你！