To my BeeBee who is sleeping so soundly once again, earlier than me. (:
Since that night on Sunday, I guess you are feeling super duper shocked on how come I know you so well. I know so well till I only can keep my mouth shut till that day. I believe this is the love I have seen in you. Baby, do you know how much I adore the way you speak to me? Every minute spend on the phone with you makes me wanna stop doing everything just to give you my fullest attention. I have no idea how much I love you now, but I know I don't deny the fact we are steading already. You have officially be the man who I want to love, to really love & feel so loved too. The strength of our love is getting stronger and stronger every single day..
I still remember that night on Sunday, how much tears were flowing down my cheeks just to tell you how much I cared for you without you knowing. How much I am doing things which you didn't know. Letting you finally know all the reasons of what am I doing. And what I do know and things you didn't expect at all. I was astounded by the fact that I have loved you so much till I cry so much. Tears kept rolling down my cheeks by seeing how much you suffered. I don't know how much you know I put in efforts in this whole relationship to see you in smiles. Yes I may appear as if I know nothing but I ain't blind, alright? Every single time I tried to capture your attention, I have to be mentally prepared to have you shouting at me
But do you know that actually makes me feel so happy as you are finally paying some attention towards me? You are finally responding to me instead of bothering other people's affairs. Ever since that day, I asked you to make that promise of letting me have your attention of a minute, I feel so blissful. Because I can finally have you for that. I don't need to let you worry about me for I know you worried others alot. I don't know how much you care, but I know I really care for your feelings and everything. Just to see you in smiles, I tried means and ways regardless bad or good. I guess my feelings for you is just that deep until I rather risk myself & make you know that I am actually here. I am actually loving you in silence so much till you think I am merely finding faults for you. I realized how lucky am I to have you. Tomorrow I am meeting you. Yes I am kinda upset cos I couldn't meet you long but the fact of me being able to meet you also makes me very happy.
For I know, having you just for that minute, I am savouring every single flavour. I know how much you cared for my thoughts and I am equally the same. I want you, my Dear to be so happy that I am so proud to tell the world that I made my Boyf so happy despite negative stuffs keep coming. I don't know how much I changed your life after knowing me. But I know you did change my life. You make me realize there are better guys than Jordan and Randal that I can love. I can love for a long period of time. I don't dare to imagine a future of me & you. But I know I am loving you alot. Alot till I thought of buying couples stuffs for us. But I am restraining myself for you are my Boyf & you have to do it. Not me. Dearest, in my eyes, I only have you. No other guys seemed to be able to capture my attention like the way you do.
Although you stay really far away, but I am so glad to have your love lingering around me. Making me feel so proud to have you in my life. I don't know how much you can sense it but I know every word I type in this blog proves my heart for you. Makes me wanna hold you tightly right now. Do you know I desire your hug right now? Because it seemed to be the hottest thing ever, which is able to make me so warmth like a warmth heater. Time has flown & I know I will stand strong and loving you a lot alot. I don't care what is coming cos all I know is I am going to find this battle with you.
Like I always said, it isn't you alone, or me alone yet it is about me & you creating a story. A love story. Our love is just so magnificent till I am so in love with you. So in love till I cry, till I want to hug you & many more. I don't know how time has flown for I know you are my romance now. (: The man I loved so much. It isn't telling other people our love, yet it is us creating different kind of memories of our love story. Dearest, woaini <3 ;D having you in my life is the most happiest moment of my life (: Nothing can be compared to the love we shared for you are the man I know I cherry alot. Kaile is nothing anymore. Jordan's impact is away. Randal's memory will never come again for I want to create memories with you, my Love. Not any other people yet you. Once again, I whisper in your eyes, I LOVE YOU, BOY <3
虽然有时候，我感觉不到你的爱可是我仍然很爱很爱你因为你现在是我爱的人
& This is how our love begins
How me & you loves each other so much
I wanna give you a big fat kiss
And tell you how much I love you (: