The love I have finally decided to pick up since 2nd October 2oo8. The guy whom I eventually fall in love after long chase of cats & dogs. A guy whom I knew it for months & months. Maybe even half a month, but simply no feelings till that very day on the 2nd Oct. I realized I am starting to fall for this man. He tried wooing me means and ways to make me be together with him. But nothing seemed to work, cos I know I couldn't get over Jordan. Couldn't get over him at all. But finally, on the fateful day I finally plucked the courage & confessed to him. Somewhere inside him makes me fall for him, fall for him to the extend of wanting to commit. He never open his mouth until the 1o Oct 2oo8, o32oam. He finally confessed to me & asked me to be his one & only girlf.
1o October 2oo8, o32oam <3 Finally the story of Desmond & Danielle offically begun. Both of us kept in underground as we still didn't want anyone to know. Didn't want to tell our lil love story to anyone. Feeling insecure with him due to the hurtful pain Jordan inflicted. It is still bleeding my lil heart & a scar was formed. Due to his hurt, many terms & conditions were created between me & you. I know I wasn't being the best girlf cos I tends to want to hide things from you. Being someone who simply runs away from everything. The beginning of our love story tests how much you truly cared for me & how much I truly do love you. Many obstacles enter our little lives, attacking it every single moment. We ain't the sweetest couple, yet the couple who simply ain't that close. Love between us wasn't going smoothly due to Zhenwen & Choyyu's love story. Both of us are dragged inside their love story. Causing many hurts in between. Keeping mum was what I was best then, keeping all my darkest emotions towards everything. Locked up in my cell, pretending how much I can say things to you. Our officially meet up as couple was somewhere around October before Zhenwen's birthday, Zhenwen, Jialing, Choyyu dragged us out. We went out, although me & you held hands in pretense of them. I felt a sense of warmth, but not as strong as what's expected. I realized your lil hands did warm me. But not as much as it should be.
We finally met up & enjoyed a day out on Zhenwen's birthday. We finally decided to open our lil relationship on the 17th itself. First person to know about it was Jialing. We told our love story to her & finally the rest know about it. Have an ease of their minds & really happy cos we're together. I questioned myself alot whether if I was just trying to accept you cos they make me pressurized or because I indeed fallen for you. Our lil love story has finally become so beautiful & I was glad that you spare the effort to buy me a keychain. A couple keychain. The first time a guy ever spend money on me for such things. Glad & happy am I. I know that feelings was happy but I can't seemed to express it out. As time passes by, we do went out & you do study too. Although we chat till wee hours, I know I enjoyed conversations with you. But many things, I was still afraid & scared. Didn't wanna make the wrong decision & causing myself to be hurt. I know I was a selfish bitch at that time, but I've no idea what's causing this. Jordan? Or? I've no idea. Our love is always interferted between Zhenwen & Fish continously, nothing seemed to be able to stop this thing. & soon, it become a barrier between us. We can't have dates only two of us, yet it will always be either or both tagging along in our lil lives.
1o Nov 2oo8. Our first monthsary.
The beautiful day happened & it seemed that Fish and Zhenwen just wouldn't leave our sights. We gotten used of either or both of them. We even met up at Fish's hse before we have to go out & celebrate. What's most is that we are going out together with her after we have our lil time. Monthsary wasn't pass only me & you, yet with Fish & Herman. Life has become not that sweet for us cos we have company & they always are there. Hysterical emotions targetting me always endlessly. Nonetheless, you tried your very best to stop me but nothing is able to stop my heart from bleeding no matter what. Our first month was spend, our lil love blog was established cos I still can't face fact that I gotten attached with you. But I know one thing, my heart is starting to fall for you, seriously. I remember asking Jialing to bake a cake, written love letters to you, & sewing a rose to a teddy bear. I still remember, every memory are still freshly intact in my head. Our love story feels so ups & downs, unbelievably we're still sweetly walking. You given me a swaroski necklace, the heart of mine inside a star. Every single steps, I remember & I know I am having you already. Have you as my other half.
Our lil first kiss, first hug, first everything feels so special. Makes me feel like I've become your first love. You hardly send me home, but I know you are trying. Clarke Quay, Suntec, Durian Head & many places become our favourite spots to date. I can't seemed to stop thinking of you each day. Although at times, I get all demanding & unreasonable, you endured it & love me more. True enough, you are getting lost with buying gifts. I was utterly disappointed due to many hurts. & I realized slowly I gotten get used of your faults. I can't keep pinpointing your wrongs & loathe you for that. I learnt to understand those types of feelings you have. True enough, I crave your lil surprises, but it is far beyond my reach cos you ain't that type. Boy, you make me so lost at times, make me so captivated in you at times. How much lil love has form into this type of love. How'd I live without you? How can I ever think of a day without you? God has been such a nice guy to give me you, although you ain't the best of the best.
2nd Dec 2oo8. My very 1st couple rings.
Finally it arrived to this day. A day I never know that I can actually have a pair of rings with you, my love. The ring which I always crave for in Randal or in Jordan. But never have it come true. It is you, who made it come true. You told me this is your 2nd Monthsary gift for me. Surprised me completely. Happy, indeed. I felt so blissful all of a sudden. You're a very practical guy, you tell me straight what you are getting. You made me happily wore the ring, you made it in CCK Lot 1 ; The Bluez. I realized that you can be the one? The right one for me? But I still have the fear that we can't last long. But I fight through it, despite emotions target alot. On the 1oth Dec 2oo8, we celebrated our 2nd Monthsary together. Really glad to see you smiling & being all happy. If I ain't wrong, I shower you with gifts again. Leaving you in shock. Can't believe I bought you things, wrote you lil letters. I realized it has become a habit, no matter how much I feel, I will write it out just for you. Despite being so ill, I bought you a key necklace just for you. Scaring you its underwear. But I know I am happy. Cos you are happy. I wore the necklace for you at Boon Lay library. For the first time, I helped my Boyf wore necklace. I am happy. You wore it & was really glad with it. No matter how sick I am, I force myself to carry on cos I must be find. The key I got you was the key to my heart that you given me, my dearest. I don't want to be not fine. Cos you're by my side. Although I was unhappy you can't take care of me the next day cos your mom was also ill, I accept it & be a happy woman. I spend hours doing lil gifts for you & wanting to see you being happy. Our love has been standing strong. 1o December 2oo8, our second monthsary We spend Christmas Eve together at your house. True enough, I wore a dress. I specially bought clothes at Bugis just for you. Just to celebrate the occasion with you. I enjoyed myself alot, then on New Year {31 Dec & 1 Jan}, you are like my shining knight guiding me through the crowds. You gave me the kiss of the New Year making me all blissful. Glad, indeed. I spent just another day with you happily in smiles <3 Never shall I forget.
Slowly days are spent with only you & no one else. We catched movies together like The Pink Panther, Madagascar 2, Twilight. Happy moments are best cherished. I know I will never ever forget moments spend with you. As time pass by, I realized you indeed can be my last love, my longest love. The man who is curing my wound. Our love starts to spark, spark like beautiful fireworks & a beginning of an unconditional love. I know Jordan still appears in my mind, but I know I will replace him cos I love you. Loving you was the best gift God has given me. I wanna love you always, but I know things do obstruct me. At times, I do get unhappy for things that happen. But I know endurance will eventually be paid off. Many things in family happen but nothing has badly occur in us. My dearboy, you are the miracle inside me. Everytime I stare at our pictures, I realized how deeply is my love for you. True enough, your words do hurts, but I know I will get over it after a day cos that's your character. I don't blame for who you really are, yet love you for you. Cos you're my romance. As we headed down to our 3rd monthsary, I bought you a box. Letting you contain all the things you given me. 1o January 2oo9, our third Monthsary. This love is standing strong & getting really strong. Happy me. Delight me. That's what you have made me become to. Do you know you made me so blissful everytime we touch?
Soon enough, I got my olvls results. The day which I know I am going to bleed. But luckily you stand through me from the day I gotten my results til the end of everything. With your help, I feel not lost yet safely by your side. Babyboy, you really helped me alot. & my feelings are become real as times pass by. Parents know who are you & your parents knows who am I. Unbelievably, our love has finally established & become stable. The strong strong deepest love between me & you. Despite the fact you didn't wear the necklace anymore, I know my heart is with you. I don't wanna feel all negative anymore. Although its still there, I am still standing strong, telling myself I have faith in you will wear it again. Time pass by & boyf has proven his worth. Proven that I wanna love you endlessly. Emotional stuffs occur, but it is all over after a rainbow appears in my lil life. Chinese New Year was celebrated with you. I met your relatives & eventually me and you become open. Our love story is getting stronger, I know that for sure. On the 1st Feb, I gotten myself a job for 3hrs. You make me hopelessly in love with you. I was so happy cos I can finally buy you things. 1oth Feb ; Our 4th Monthsary, 12th Feb ; My birthday ; 14th Feb ; Valentine Day. Three events within Feb. I celebrated 4th monthsary happily with you. 1o February 2oo9 ; Our Fourth Monthsary. So happy, you know? I've given you a photo album of our love story, that's actually Valentine Day's gift too. I folded 4 rows of 99 hearts for you & hanged a rose inside a bottle of hearts which I specially folded for you. I am glad that I was able to carry on celebrating with you. My birthday, you given me a Teddy. & I know I loved it at first sight. I treated you Jack's Place & that was one happy day I will never forget. On the 14th, my very first Valentine Day celebrated with you. You given me 3 stalks of pink roses & one bonquet of wedding bears cos you knew I love bears. You also given me a necklace, heart one. My dearest, I was really happy that I spend this 3 days with you so happily. <3 Never shall it be forgotten. You are just so sweet.
Time passes by so quickly & we happily spend our lil love together. I fell ill alot in the process of working cos I couldn't get used of time. I bought you a puzzle which I fixed it myself on our 5th Monthsary. I was really contented cos I bought you something & I fixed it all by myself. 1o March 2oo8 ; Our Fifth Monthsary. The day was lovely & happy. I carried the puzzle all the way hoping you loved it. I was really glad you enjoyed it, glad with it. I remember you giving me a precious thots album of me & you. My boy, you are so sweet. Despite it is cheap, I am glad for what you did. The lil gift was deeply cherished. Every moment is just that sweet when I spend with you. Never wanna you to leave me, my boy. A woman wants to be a man's last romance whereas a man wants to be a woman's first love. He guided me & he loved me & I know the feelings of being loved finally. His endurance and patience paid off. Travelling to CCK to Tamp & to and forth, I don't mind yet I am enjoying it happily. (: Cos I know this love can last. Love last, lust dies. <3 Isn't that so true? The picture of us speak a thousand words. We have about 3oo plus of our photos & I believe the pictures will speak 3oooooo words. Isn't it so true? I totally agreed with it. (: My dearboy, be my always love? No matter how much people judge us, I don't wanna care yet love you with my whole heart. Big kisses for you.
The day where I got my 2nd pay. I treated you New York New York. I promised you & finally I treated you. I believe you have a bad shock but its for you only. No man deserves my treat except you. My babyboy, for you. I meant it. The lil treat & Addias Perfume & pink shirt & the card is dedicated for you as my first pay & our 6th Monthsary. 1o April 2oo8 ; Sixth Monthsary {Half A Year}. Happy me. Gotten you gifts causing me so glad. I love you, so many. I never wanna say goodbye anymore to this love. Love isn't fake anymore yet real. Between me and you, no barrier, no nothing yet just loving you, my precious. Your gifts may get less but it doesn't matters cos my heart is what it matters, I must say this to you. Our love is founded & nothing can replace you. Guys may appear, girls may appear, but I love you, my one & only. How to express this love? I don't know but love you just this way. Your love is what I desire for, nothing else can be compared to that. I know you know I love you, so that's what you must know & understand. Our love has finally established & standing firm. Believe me, you are my always love. Nothing can ever replace this love. School is starting to begin & our lil lives start to unfold a different stages of life. Many stuffs take place & what's matter is I love you.
We finally approached to school reopen & a new beginning of school life with you. Just liddat, today is our 7th Monthsary. 1o May 2oo9 ; Seventh Monthsary. Our love has finally come to this path. I loved you. & our love stays strong, this strong until now. Although gifts are way too simple but I am glad for what I bought. Babyboy, I love you. This journey walking with you will be always. I ain't going to think negtive stuffs between me & you, yet maybe only family? I guess. Well, my dearest you're my sunshine, my only one. Never shall you be replaced from me. Cos you're my only. There are so many guys but I love you, Desmond Toh Yong Qiang only. I know things happen, but things can never bring this love down. Baby, let's create a future between me and you, not sex yet a strong love story. Hold me tight & we can be together always. I know that. Cos you're my destined one. (: Woaini. So special, indeed. I guess this love is strong. I must say again, your heart is mine & always mine. Tell you something, your smiles are always able to make me so happy unknowingly. The best gift if you really can't get me anything, smile. Smile happily just for me. Endless love with you, alrighteyy... :D
Boyf♥
& I feel hopeless in love with you
Embrace the present and forget his mistakes
That's what I learn in our love,
You will never be replaced by anything
Yet only I shall love you for more than anything else
I love you, & that's a total fact
Hugging you, is my warmth
Kissing you, is my romance
My dear, you have become my last romance
I know that, but can I be yours truly?
Be happy for what you did
You make our love a fruitful journey
Cos I love you, my Hubby <3
P.S. Tomorrow I am going to have my online test! Geeeehhh, afraid me. But BNI doesn't enter my lil head! Making me damn pissed off, hopefully I can get 70%. I don't expect much, manzxz! Cos it is fucking hard! >< As for PCS, I don't dare to think too. Gonna read up while I chat with Boyf! <3 Not going to kee siao read, but read & understand. Well, must say thanks to Boyf (; hahahaha lovelove you. Lastly, disappointments enter me, but I just gotta just say "its over"
Desmond Toh Yong Qiang♥