It isn't all about one party now. It isn't all about being lonely and all by myself now. I guess for the first time, I know that love isn't all about being all by yourself. For I am blissfully attached to my Boyf, the man who made me realise that love isn't all about being a loner. It is more to share every single emotions with the one you are in love with. Unknowingly, I see that through my Boyf's eyes. My beloved Boyf's eyes. The way you speak, the way you react, the way he concern, I realize love is all about sharing everything. Especially whatever within the inner. This is the way how love actually begins. I always believe one's hurt will just carry on. Yes I admit memories stay, but we must definitely cherish what is in the present now. That's what it matters now.
It isn't about going back to the past, and getting back things which you have lost in your way. It is about cherishing what you have in the present and making things a better one. Since the ordeal of what Jordan and many others did to my life, I realize the importance of being truly loved by a man who deeply cared & not forgetting friendships who comes along the way to help you. To tell you, that you ain't alone anymore, you have many people standing by you. I learnt this sentence from them, learnt so much till I realise day by day, I am applying it. But sometimes, I am just stuck in my own world, a world of me, myself & I. It is either, I am still afraid of things repeating or I simply just run and run non stop. In fact, being a sadist girl since young, I guess for once. I think I am really happy. Happy both in love & friendship for I have no ideas how is my results and family. I guess it is all about giving that original gorgeous from one's smile. Being happy isn't so easy as it seemed. For example, if you smile from your outside yet your inner is just in pain, what's the point?
I have encountered so many emotional people in my lives. If by saying, I didn't get affected, it is all just a pack of lies. Because in life, we walk and understand our path of lives. For once, I must say everyone get affected in certain different ways. I guess this is life, right? Well, now I wanna proudly say, say to the whole entire blog. I am really fortunate to have this man named Desmond Toh Yong Qiang loving me, cherishing me & being there for me. Although I do wonder what kind of love we are having, but I know its a bliss that I have him in my life. Have him to understand me, shower me with so many care and concern. So much till I know I really loves this man. Well, love isn't all to me. I know apart from him, I have wondeful friends like my best friend, Winnie. My cherished friends ; Jonathan, Denise, Weiqiang, Vivian, Choyyu &&& many others. But for now, I know by having them, I ain't harbouring anything, yet cherishing every minute with them ;D
Having this boyf in my life, I guess this is what God has given me. Given me to stay happy. I totally thank and sincerely grateful to God to give me this man. Yes I know sometimes I want certain stuffs from him, but I believe we all simply just need time. Everyday of my life, for the first time after being single so long, a man is willing to msg me all day long without getting tired. I guess I am really lucky to known this Boyf. Known him and being happily with him. I am glad he do stands by me, he showers me so much love till I know I crave for more. I am just a mere simple girl, agreed? I always thought relationships really sux like hell after what Jordan did to me, but now things are different.
Things are so different till I can't believe I am so lucky to have such love coming to me. Just like that, my boyf & I have been together for 22days, 12 hrs already. Amazingly, as time flies, my emotions are opening up but concealing in the process too. But it is such a joy to have him in my life. I am not caring how long are we gonna last, or whatever yet I am going to just believe that he will love me for a long time. I am not going to run anymore, not going to go crazy or what, yet simply just giving me a smile (: facing whatever that it coming. Because love is all about going through many things to be what we are now. I have to say, I still remember the endurance my Boyf have before chasing me. Woah, for the first time someone actually WAITS for me and my heart was touched. INDEED touched by it. How can I say that I have no feelings?
Well, gotta admit I have no feelings for him until the time Choyyu started to counsel me. The time where things started to change. Change so drastically. Can't help it but say time flies flies. So freaking fast, till I can't believe it. Boyf oh Boyf. Our love is one things I cherish so much now. Like the way I cherish my Best friend. I dont know how to express the amount of love I have for you. But I know I really love your presence especially the way you do lil things without me knowing. Boyf. iLy <3 Everyday is a learning experience for us. I realize I learnt alot of things with you along the way. I have no idea how things are going to be. But you are are cherished. So cherished. Woah I guess this is why I am getting so crazy over you day by day. Baby, saya cinta kamu <33 :D My happiness lays in you (:
Danielle Teo Yun Jie
♥
Desmond Toh Yong Qiang
只要能感觉得出爱的感觉，一切都自然而然幸福了
