That's When I Love You

HAPPY FOUR WEEKS TO YOU, MY DEAREST <3 Time surely knows how to play a fool on peepo. Sometimes time is just so fast till you barely notice today is the day. Sometimes time is just so slow till you wanna just to ask time to pass fast. Just like that, my love with my Dearest has finally come to the 4th week (: Amazingly, I sense it is getting just right. I find its neither fast nor slow, in fact just right for me. I must admit, for the first time for my 1st Month I am using my heart & brain to do the 1st Month gift for my Dearest <3 In fact, can you believe I actually spend till 4am to finish the present and then make the effort to update this blog while my Dearest is asleep? I know he is going to kill me upon seeing this (: But then, I think its worth it. Because at least I have finished our 1st Month gift && not forgetting to wish both of us, Happy Fourth Weeks (:

All of a sudden, I wanna see my Dearest <3 He just kept appearing on my head lately. I pretend to give so many faces to him but he just seemed to be able to make me in smiles again (: I don't know why but I know that my love for him is getting deeper each single day. Yes certain problems kept occuring, but I know that nothing can stop my heart from loving him. I swear to God, that I love this man till the day he love me no more <3 for a fact. I made that vow since the day I started with Dearest. I have no idea, why I loved him so much. I guess cos this is my first time loving a man from friends to lovers (: I do wonder alot when the night is quiet, on why my Dearest rather love me than any other woman? Everytime I asked him this question, he will tell me I am unique. So different from any other girl. But I simply think I am like girls who love receiving gifts, having fun times with her best friend & Boyf &&& many others. What actually in me attracts Boyf so much? I seriously feel so clueless over it. Well, I believe I can love Boyf because I want to (: I intend to. Although I have no desire to think so far, but I have thought of alot things while doing Dearest's first month gift. I thought of alot of things I want to do with my Boyf together hand in hand (: Because he is my love, my boyf, the man (: Well, I guess it might be wishful thinking but this is what I can say =/ But seriously, I have no idea what Boyf will think though. It is scary, you know. Because I am abit demanding, I think. While thinking of those sh!t. Oh well, I hope Dearest won't think I am overboard again. What I actually think of doing with Dearest & really hope it comes truee...=)

o1. I thought of walking around the whole suntec rounds and rounds with Dearest.
o2. I thought of taking neoprints having all sorts of poses with Dearest.
o3. I thought of sleeping at Dearest's hse and him watching me sleep.
o4. I thought of Dearest hugging me so tightly and telling me, I Love You Dear.
o5. I thought of going every part of Singapore with Dearest.
o6. I thought of Dearest surprising me with a big fat fat toy.
o7. I thought of taking Singapore Flyer together with Dearest & my Best Friend.
o8. I thought of being just alone with Dearest for one whole day straight.
o9. I thought of staring at Dearest till my eyes grow red and tired.
1o. I thought of Dearest sending me home.
11. I thought of Dearest assuring me that I am the only girl he loved right now.
12. I thought of Dearest cooking for me delicious yummy food.
13. I thought of just having more and more photos with my Dearest and Best Friend.
14. I thought of Dearest stopping me when I am going all crazy.
15. I thought of being there for Dearest as long as he needs someone.
16. I thought of Dearest fighting for me when he knows there are other ppl out there.
17. I thought of going the Zoo, Botanical Garden & everything with Dearest.
18. I thought of dancing with Dearest.
19. I thought of Dearest entertaining me with his cute faces & voices.
2o. I thought of Dearest standing right in front of me now.
21. I thought of celebrating every celebration with Dearest.
22. I thought of loving only Dearest.
23. I thought of taking care of Dearest when he is sick and ill.
24. I thought of Dearest telling me how important am I to him.
25. I thought of Dearest stopping me to do things I don't like.
26. I thought of Dearest grabbing my waist and never let me go.
27. I thought of Dearest surprising me with different kinds of gift.
28. I thought of Dearest cycling with me.
29. I thought of watching sunset and sunrise with Dearest.
3o. I thought of holding my Dearest tightly without obstruction.
31. I thought of Dearest coming to send me home from School.
32. I thought of having Dearest to know all my friends especially Best Friend cos I love her most.
33. I thought of crying on Dearest's shoulder when I am so sad.
34. I thought of celebrating my birthday with Dearest.
35. I thought of celebrating every monthsary with Dearest.

Simply I thought of doing all this with Dearest. But I guess it is simply something so hard to come true. I don't know why but I feel so negative. But I know my heart has this man already regardless of whatever it is. Time surely has flown by. And I am so sure of my heart of loving this man only. It isn't just pain with him, it is the different taste I have when I spend with him. Seriously, every single move he does makes me just loving him that much. Yes sometimes I may not like it. But I will just carry on loving him moreee for I am his girlf & I hate fighting over mere things. For the first time after Jordan, I am feeling reality towards my relationships. I am so glad to be in this world to finally found my Knight, I guess (: This is all about me & my Dearest in a way. I guess his love is all I ever needed (: His love & Best friend's love for they are the best damn thing a girl could ever have. I guess I gotta end this post ):

Lastly, I just want to say "I LOVE YOU, BABY <3"

& The Day I Choose You,
I Have No Regrets Because I Have Fallen For You So Deep.
So Deep Till It Feels Like I Am In The Alantic Ocean Now.
I Just Love You That Much <3

我爱你比你爱我还要深因为你是我现在的骑士，在我心里永远都有你