I cried again. Unknowingly, tears engulfed down my cheeks. Leading me to cry unstoppable, can't help it but just cry. I am so afraid of my Boyf being pain and tired and not knowing how to please me. Every single moment as the thought of it comes, teardrops on that day start to flood my cheeks with tears. Causing all the tears to roll down continuously. I can't help it. Am I loving him too much till I am expecting alot from him? I feel so hateful when I am with him, because when I comment something, he got so dejected which really makes me think that he resent me, he loathe me for telling him what to do.
I don't know why. That night, tears just came down rolling non stop. I want to fight that demon so badly, so my emotions are in a whirl. I want my Boyf to know how much I love him, I appreciated for what is he doing. But somehow or another, his face makes me feel that I am just a demanding girl in his eyes. For the first time in my life, I realized how different have I become since Jordan's departure. I realized how unknowingly I have fallen for this man. Not wanting to do anything dumb yet just cherishing him. But when his eyes let me feel the insecure in him, I feel nothing but just want to tell him, I love him that much? But I am very curious, how much does he knows I love him? Well, seriously, I expect nothing from him, yet him to know that I want to be his favourite hello. Always there loving him loads. Each single feeling came pouring down so much on Saturday. I need my Boyf to know how much I am loving him. I loved him that much. So much till I know he seemed to have become my motivation.
Yes, loving him too much hurts me deeply. No matter how hard I refrain myself, I am back to reality. I love this man more than anything else. More than what I didn't imagine I can don't do no matter how much I feel.
I love this man so much till I can't bear to throw temper at him.
I love this man so much till I know he is the only man I love him.
I love this man so much till I am willing to give my life for.
I love this man so much till I rather be a stranger towards him for I know this way he will be happier.
I love this man so much till my heart will beat so wildly when he holds my hand.
I love this man so much till I know as long as I treat him coldly, he will be happier.
I love this man so much till I expect nothing from him at all.
I love this man so much till I wanna care for him alot alot like the way I have my best friend.
I love this man so much till I can don't listen to what other men say about him.
I love this man so much till I know my hands are typing.
I love this man so much till I silently awaiting for him to smile so happily.
I love this man so much till I want him to know he is really being loved by me
I love this man so much till I really wants something warmth from him.
I love this man so much till I know he is the only man I love him.
I love this man so much till I am willing to give my life for.
I love this man so much till I rather be a stranger towards him for I know this way he will be happier.
I love this man so much till my heart will beat so wildly when he holds my hand.
I love this man so much till I know as long as I treat him coldly, he will be happier.
I love this man so much till I expect nothing from him at all.
I love this man so much till I wanna care for him alot alot like the way I have my best friend.
I love this man so much till I can don't listen to what other men say about him.
I love this man so much till I know my hands are typing.
I love this man so much till I silently awaiting for him to smile so happily.
I love this man so much till I want him to know he is really being loved by me
I love this man so much till I really wants something warmth from him.
If by treating this man like a stranger and it can make him be a delightful man, I find it worthwhile for at least I know like this, he no need to worry about me & I can just love him like that.
Yes I admit I want him to hold me close and let me believe that he deserved to be loved by me
Yes I admit I want him to grab me as tight as I can when I am running wild
Yes I admit I want him to tell me how much he misses me every single day
Yes I admit I want him to just see what I am typing right now
Yes I admit I want him to just tell me he knows I treat him really important
Yes I admit I want him to be there staring at me and whisper in my ears, I love you
Yes I admit I want him to be a guy to pamper with different stuffs
Yes I admit I want him to see me as I type
Yes I admit I want him to tell me some lil things which I never expect before
Yes I admit I want to be a kid for at least I have the attention
Yes I admit I want his warmth hug when I say I am cold
Yes I admit I want him to know that his smiles is something that can make me smile whole day
Yes I admit I want him to know that I love him so much
Yes I admit I want him to push away everything just to sit there with me for no other things can distract our love
Yes I admit I want him to stare in my deep black eyes to let me know that I rely on him
Yes I admit I want him to feel that my love for him is unconditional
Yes I admit I want him to grab me as tight as I can when I am running wild
Yes I admit I want him to tell me how much he misses me every single day
Yes I admit I want him to just see what I am typing right now
Yes I admit I want him to just tell me he knows I treat him really important
Yes I admit I want him to be there staring at me and whisper in my ears, I love you
Yes I admit I want him to be a guy to pamper with different stuffs
Yes I admit I want him to see me as I type
Yes I admit I want him to tell me some lil things which I never expect before
Yes I admit I want to be a kid for at least I have the attention
Yes I admit I want his warmth hug when I say I am cold
Yes I admit I want him to know that his smiles is something that can make me smile whole day
Yes I admit I want him to know that I love him so much
Yes I admit I want him to push away everything just to sit there with me for no other things can distract our love
Yes I admit I want him to stare in my deep black eyes to let me know that I rely on him
Yes I admit I want him to feel that my love for him is unconditional
Yes I admit all that is what I want, but my heart can't bear to do anything because my man is just that special. I need expect nothing yet just sit there and stare at him for I love him. Just by staring at him at the corner, it makes me so glad for I know, having him at that moment makes me feel his love lingering around me. Yes I am very fairytale, but this man makes me feel so loved without doing anything. His actions and words, I am used to it for this is why I loved him. It may hurts to see my Boyf not caring but I am fine with it.
Because this is the vow I made. No matter how many times I have been serious with him, back to reality, I cannot afford to lose him at all. One month already. Yes people are telling me, your first month is always like sh!t. But for now, I am okays with it. Because I know with Desmond around, my 1st Month is already memorable although of stupid things happen. Yes I say before, things have changed. It is not simply about changing anymore.
It is about being a different girl and loving a different type of man which you didn't meet before. I guess that's what makes my Boyf, Desmond Toh Yong Qiang so special. I don't care what happens because I cherish every single moment with him. Regardless smiles or frowns, I am happy that his pressence is beside me. I don't know how much he can feel in every post I post but it comes from within the heart. Words comes from heart, and brain is used for only thinking. But since 1o Oct, nothing can stop me from loving this man.
I am sorry for being so childish sometimes
I am sorry for being so demanding at times
I am sorry for being your friend when I want you to do something.
I am sorry for being so emotional since the day we begin.
I am sorry for being so used to your emotions.
I am sorry for wanting you to hug me super long.
I am sorry for saying hurting words.
I am sorry for needing you to be there for me when you are tired
I am sorry for asking you to care for me the way I want it.
I am sorry for troubling you when you are busy.
I am sorry for always asking you to call me.
I am sorry for making our first month like crap.
I am sorry for having thoughts of things you can surprise me always.
I am sorry for thinking things that I shouldn't have.
I am sorry for wanting to be your love only now.
I am sorry for letting you wait.
I am sorry for wanting to feel some love from you.
I am sorry for giving you atittude at times.
I am sorry for asking you to blog when your brain is empty.
I am sorry for shooting you by saying you never call me "dear" and "ily".
I am sorry for wanting you to stay with me, just me & you.
I am sorry for getting used to the fact we cannoy\t be alone.
I am sorry for being so demanding at times
I am sorry for being your friend when I want you to do something.
I am sorry for being so emotional since the day we begin.
I am sorry for being so used to your emotions.
I am sorry for wanting you to hug me super long.
I am sorry for saying hurting words.
I am sorry for needing you to be there for me when you are tired
I am sorry for asking you to care for me the way I want it.
I am sorry for troubling you when you are busy.
I am sorry for always asking you to call me.
I am sorry for making our first month like crap.
I am sorry for having thoughts of things you can surprise me always.
I am sorry for thinking things that I shouldn't have.
I am sorry for wanting to be your love only now.
I am sorry for letting you wait.
I am sorry for wanting to feel some love from you.
I am sorry for giving you atittude at times.
I am sorry for asking you to blog when your brain is empty.
I am sorry for shooting you by saying you never call me "dear" and "ily".
I am sorry for wanting you to stay with me, just me & you.
I am sorry for getting used to the fact we cannoy\t be alone.
I am really sorry for things that I always demand and ask from you. I ask no more. And I will just walk the way it should be. All of a sudden, emotions are filling me up. Making me want his pressence, but I know I must supress all this feelings right now. Because by suppressing, I know my man is happy. He will be really glad. I have no desire to do anything when he does nothing cos by just staring at him unknowingly, I realized he is the hottest guy ever & the man I loved so deeply. Am I going crazy? I think I have just fallen so deeply into this man.
My dear, Happy First Month. One month already. We have gone through thicks and thins to be what we are now. I really hope we can spend each monthsary happily with smiles. Yes I know you are different and I am glad for that. Baby. I love you much, it is a fact that is unchangeable. I Love You means I really do love you, cherish you, miss you, want you, need you. Well sounds abit nuts. But this is the way I lovee you loads loads <3333 WOAINI (:
One month is the beginning of something
One month is the about having so much emotions running
One month is the learning of different things
One month is the moment things are revolvoing
One month is the counting of a strong love
One month is the test of two's hearts
One month is the about having so much emotions running
One month is the learning of different things
One month is the moment things are revolvoing
One month is the counting of a strong love
One month is the test of two's hearts
One whole month. 31 days (: Long indeed, so I need you something so loud and just tell the whole world and show off.
TODAY IS ME AND MY BOYF'S FIRST MONTHHH :D
I LOVEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE YOU! :D
& That's the love I am going to give you till the day you give up. <3 Sarang Heyo, Dear. Wo Ai Ni, Dear. I Love You, Dear. Te Amo, Dear, Ai Ni Shi Te Ru, Dear. 52O, Dear. Je'Taime, Dear.
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I LOVE YOU. I LOVE YOU. I LOVE YOU ♥ Desmond Toh Yong Qiang
& I give you 99 "I LOVE YOU" for I love you so so so much :DDD
And you are also entitled the key to Danielle Teo Yun Jie's Fragile Heart~
This is how our Love begin <3
I dedicate this song just for you. :D when I thought of you, this song comes (: Hear and read this post worh ;] Find out the meaning YOURSELFFFF :D hear this song and read post worh ;x
Lyrics
宝贝，我爱你爱你！ 因为现在只有你值得张芸洁的爱和你已经有那把钥匙了